Yesterday I was at the dentist. I was talking with the hygienist telling her all the things we have going on and I realized I am a responsibility junkie. Yes I love it, I thrive in it. But the down side is sometimes I take on so many I forget the really important ones, then I start feeling frazzled, unexpected trials come up and I start thinking I need to reprioritize. But I am going along at such a fast pace I can’t take the time to reprioritze.
Then bam an illness comes out of no where and knocks us off our feet. Effie and I are down with the flu. Although already today things are going better, but yesterday, my yesterday was a day. At first I was thinking, “man with all the things I have going on I don’t have time to get sick. Now I will be behind.”
But as I was sitting on the sofa yesterday afternoon in the silence holding my sick baby who only wanted to be held by me, I realized this is probably what I needed to slow down. And it was a beautiful moment. The older children were playing safely outside with Hiro and Jack (the canines in the family). We don’t have cable so whereas before on a day like yesterday I would veg out on the sofa with movies or TV the TV was silent. I wasn’t feeling well either so sitting up at the computer didn’t sound good and I was able to just be for a moment.
In the end I was able to get most of my tasks done anyway, but at a slower pace with more interruptions and it was good. Then off to bed early and both Effie and Jack slept almost all the way through the night. Today I have decided to continue taking it easy as who knows where this illness will go from here. So if you don’t hear from me for awhile assume we are just being and getting over whatever illness comes our way.